Get into a camp, start defecting
People get closer to me then I reject' em
and its all coming loose, thinking fucking screw it
if I could really stop it, trust me I would do it
shits a part of myself
I watch the blood dripping down harming myself
down the drain - same with my life
people start to think Im a misanthrope in disguise cos
accidents - say I have no next to kin
after gigs - all I do is neck the gin and leave-
isolation - its never gonna trickle down
why am I leaving when I really want to stick around

Girl gets to close my heart, move back
turn from the guy she loves into a douchebag
yeah, follow patterns that are antipathic
They think I lost it, I guess I never had it
they worry about their tops and designer jeans
while I'll be looking sloppy worry bout the struggle thats inside of me
huh, so whys my villain always winning
and the good never triumph got my head steady spinning
am I sinking or I’m drifting, too much heavy drinking
so I’m stumbling and I’m tripping, reality is just slipping away
damn it
why am I letting go when I really want to grab it

Claim I need them, I just use them
say I'm winning, but I'm just losing
thin air- feel like I am passing out
reach heights which destroy me when i finally come crashing down
and you - better scrape me off the scene
kid got a broken mind, broken soul and broken dreams
yeah, give it all trust me I be on my shit
but many people lost the trust too many empty promises
that I've made, now its too late
so its okay, I understand if I lost your faith
uh, this shit sucks
why am I going mute if I really want to speak up

Hardly sleep, wish I had time
my Heartbeat, just flatlines
took my final steps, never thought that I would rest
just walked into the greatest trap I've ever set
I - won't make it out this fix tonight
'cos I gathered all my vices and worst of all my kryptonite
so I'm going down, down on my knees
body on full collapse, black out as I bleed
-yeah, so much blood gushing now
regret everything while my life's flushing out
its cold like december
why make you forget when I want to be remembered